Sugar rush

       Okay think back to childhood when you would eat lots and lots of candy even though your parents would tell you not too, but you would do it anyway. And you would get this burst of energy and run around and around the house for about 10 mins then crash. I mean to you it felt like hours soaring in the air, feeling invincible, until the sugar kicked in and the tummy ache began yeah fun stuff. I mean I still do this same act today sometimes, but that is beside the point. What I am trying to get at is the moment of invincibility that one feels on that sugar kick that seems to last forever. Since November I have been running around like that little kid, working and working on raising the money. At times my sugar kick would wear off but I always found more candy and was rebooted. The last fall was the hardest, because I was the most recent. I checked my account and I was almost there, I had about $250 left to pay. The next day I saw that $200 was gone out of the mission account. As the days past and I was in that duel stage, I finally retrieved out more candy booted back up and realized ok I have 10 days to get the money, so I worked sold some stuff and got the money. I don't know if anyone followed that, but the point is I never gave up in the hard times even though there were difficult times I mean for a 20 year old unemployed to raise almost $10,000 in 5 months was a toil. In that time I kept up my grades and other parts of my life, I had rough patches but if I did not I would have been worried. I would not be prepared for whatever I am going to face on my journey.

Wait for the LORD; 

be strong, and let your heart take courage; 

wait for the Lord! 

Psalm 27:14 

    As I waited on the Lord and he spoke to me in many different ways, there were times I got mad and wanted to do things my own way. But others kept on reminding me 'Anna dear, patience it will pay off, everything happens for a reason.' There was a time I got tired of hearing that 'everything happens for a reason, because that is all I had been hearing since I was in 9th grade. But someone I love and dear to my heart, he reminded me that he just wanted to say it because it is true and I should be reminded of it. Because God has carried me this far, what else does he have in store for me! 

Dreams

"If this life is one act 

Why do we lay all these traps

We put them right in our path

When we just wanna be free 

I will not waste my days

Making up all kinds of ways

To worry about all the things

That will not happen to me." 

-Jason Mraz 

    For years upon years I placed things in front of my dreams, I would make up excuses and listen to the world. The fact that my dream is not going to bring in a lot of money, so I went with the doctor route. Then that was to hard for me so I drifted to nursing, since my mom and my grandmother were both nurses I already had a lot of that knowledge. But that did not settle with me either. After some other majors I settled on my final major, Non profit. I went so many days and nights. I wasted those times and hours in classes doing what I was not suppose to be doing. Finally I decided I was going to let go and fly free as a bird. I flew. Once I let go and let God in his arms open wide incased me in his loving arms. I am home. I am safe. Why have I left him for so long? He had always be there? I was free and now the hard road of my dream began. But God has provided SO much already. I am ALMOST done raising my money, I would not be here with out him, and the lovely people who have donated, prayed, and just been here by my side with me. 

"You can turn off the sun,

but I'm still gonna shine." 

-Jason Mraz 

   Everything seems dandy going great in life, got money, a good job, have stupendous grades in school all is right. Then BAM trajede interrupts your life, what are you going to do? My life has had a lot of those BAM moments but I have not stopped, I have just learned more and more from them. Lost support in my dream to go to Africa, twist and turns to getting there, and way before that in my life. But I have become more confident in myself and I lean on my powerful Savior in every situation. He is always there for me. He never leaves my side. So things can come, but I am still going to shine bright and not let them get me down. 

                    Do not let anyone or anything get you down in your life, be yourself. Follow your dreams and strive for your best. Get the negative thoughts out of your mind, and keep the positive pumping in your brain!